Accustomed to Be Empty, Confused and Bored

January 5, 2012 - 1:44 pm Comments Off

These past few days I have leafed through the book without tale a deep looking, the mood somehow is not good. From a segment or sad, or happy, or worry, or moaning words, I seem to see them that time. Perhaps a serious beating is not sitting in front of the computer keyboard with proficiency and perhaps half awake in bed playing with his beloved cell phone, or directly get some beautiful sentences and then copy and paste the word. And get up from the bed and take with the LED flashlight to have a sit under the tree in front of the house. Everyone has their own little secret, including me.

A friend in their own space said not to spend more than hard effort, then the expected return expectations. For his words that I laughed because I know in his words the expectation will certainly not be ordinary. Because his achievements to me are only enough to pay my last respects I have a same feeling.

Sometimes love to meditate at my spare time and think back about me four or five years ago then look at the present form, I will have the impermanence to laugh at the world. Oh, who would have thought the time that falls for granted to this point? Forget it to say that useless and have chosen a number of things, then, it might actually the time put something down. Not to mess up yourself and find out the way to get out that just like the LED flashlight to get break through the darkness. In many people’s eyes I have enough rogue, enough boring. Sometimes I think so, keep a smile every day to gain the paralysis of their own, like a poison in love with a ghost, like cannabis, opium poppy that to have a try although you know that they are impossible. Others do not know me, neither am I?

I had always thought I had loved someone and had always thought there was a feeling moving through the heart, but when I think over at the end I really did not to fit any person. Oh, yes, except for my parents.

And I stay in the whole night in the cold outside, stand on the street to let others see the same look as a clown. But also to please their hate and smile with incomparable pair, to be honest my heart is very awkward, but I think about it just to treat it right as the social practice. The LED flashlight helps me to find the way home and I have no right to criticize anyone, just be me may the best.

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